Wow I wasn't expecting to have fun today. But I had a total blast I woke up this morning and Colleen had called me saying that I could come shopping with her, her mom, grandma, and two aunts if I could be ready REALLY soon so I got ready in like ten min (after I just got out of bed ha!) and we piled into the van and hit the outlets. At the risk of sounding shallow...I had such a good time. We went to alllll these places, made fun of ugly clothes and the like:) Then we went to Gap and looked around, I spied THE COOLEST pants ever to walk the earth (no pun intended) they were black, with sequines on the side...Banana Republic, need I say more? Unfortunetly I didn't have any money with me for that so I was like "noooooo" but Aunt Renee was like "I'll help you get those..." Because everyone was like "That is SO CHELS!" haha and we're at the check out and she buys them for me! I was so touched because even though I see her sometimes she doesn't know me THAT well so that was super-sweet of her:)
Then, later we went into Claire's and I got this awesome bed canopy, (I've been saving up for stuff for my room) it's gorgeous, I love it:) And then Colleen bought me this awesome pair of earrings for my Christmas present;) Thanks, girl:)
So we ate at Ruby Tuesday's it was my first time and I <3 that place! And later we all went to Starbucks! Gah that place is so amazing...*sigh* I had such a good time, we had such a cool group of people it was really fun, except for the fact I didn't bring a coat with me yeah that was stupid but luckily thanks to an extra fleece I was ok. The last store, Aerosoles was awesome because I walked in and was like "Hey...that's CLAY on the radio!" Well it was but it was his Christmas album...the one I hadn't heard yet, so we got to listen to the whole Clay cd cause we took a while in that store:) I was like "Colleen I want to sing along...stop me!"
Needless to say after shopping for nine hours I am exhausted. Really tired. But very happy I had a good Thanksgiving, it was really boring though cause it was just my fam and my grandma...no cousins but it was still fine. I watched Spider-Man. I love that movie. Yup that's right I said that, Tobey McGuire is a wonderful actor, not like those stupid guys who are so good looking that they get parts they don't deserve-ha! Anyway I really liked it, Jayla called towards the end but that was good cause I love talkin to her and had already seen the movie...
Today my dad got a home theatre system With surround sound and everything so I cannot wait to watch Mr. Deeds tonight...We've been needing a new CD player SO badly! It's this vcr/dvd/cd player with big speakers and then small ones for the rest of the room...wow. Thanks dad
As I sit here my eyes are shutting on me...*yawns* I'm gonna hit the sack early tonight lol but watch I'll go to sleep at like midnight *rolls eyes*
Hope you guys had a great Thanksgiving!
btw for more some laughs go to xanga.com/foofkins
that's m'dear Foofkins...he shares his own Thanksgiving story:)
I now have a Japanese lantern.It’s pink.It is the coolest thing since sliced bread.I love the way it glows.
Wow…it’s Thanksgiving tomorrow! TodayI baked with Ash and my mom…I made crescent rolls while jamming to Jump5’s Christmas album and was proud for my perfection on those rolls…but I blew it when I dumped the flour into the cherry pie filling…yeah if you can imagine a cake-pie…that’s what its gonna be.Tomorrow we’re not going to have ANY guests…whoa scary.I’m really gonna miss shopping on black Friday with Victor, David, and Barbie LAnd nobody great is performing for the Macy’s Parade…(Raven doesn’t get me that excited haha)
I have so much to be thankful for. I have a house, a family, friends, food, more clothes then I need and opportunities every day that many kids will never have.While a lot of stuff is messed up and wrong…(like for instance this afternoon I deleted my e-mail box with important e-mail addresses for Hawk Nelson, Building429, etc. and special e-mails from friends…I cried.I lost it all but I will recover lol)
Anyway I am grateful for all the friends that have stepped up to the plate recently, y’all know who you are…reaching out to give me a kind word, to listen, to give me a reassuring hug/pat on the shoulder.Bless y’all because you guys are priceless diamonds in my eyes.
Right now it’s a commercial break, Ash and I are watching “Christmas with Fantasia, Kelly, and Ruben” I only like Kelly haha I love her new single “While You Were Gone” it’s awesome how she can actually sing like crazy live.I miss my music, I haven’t had time lately.
As to Peter’s question about cutters:
Well from reading various articles and listening to Dawson McAllister I’ve found out why they do what they do.They feel that physical pain will take away the emotional.It’s a bitter-sweet distraction.It also can bring attention and sympathy from people if/when they find out.But mostly it’s a step BEFORE suicide; lots of teens are too chicken to commit suicide so they fall back on cutting.Many teens have said it’s just a momentary relief from the “outside world” they feel so much anger/hurt that they’re not using their head…they just do it and that’s that.Pretty simple…pretty awful.
Anyway I hope you guys have a vundebar (wonderful) Christmas, thank you all for your sweet supportive comments, I treasure themJ
*ahem* still *cough* looking for a Josh Groban fan to go to the concert with…Dec. 6 is comin up (ticket selling date).
Shout out to a few people recently who have been so rad…
Ash my lovin sis: even though we constantly get on each other’s nerves I <3 you and that will always be true. I love the times we’ve laughed together, and the ones we’ve cried…thank you for being sweet and supportive of my wacky ideas;)You inspire me…your energy is amazing;)You challenge me daily with your willing to get even better…rock on.
Colleen: to my darlin friend who I’ve known for like seven years?I love how I can ALWAYS be myself around you and be as “Dorky” as I want to be…I love our dance times and the times when we laugh so hard we FALL over laughing;)I cannot wait till you get a xanga;)Thanks for all the wonderful memories!!!
Laura: I know you won’t see this but you are one of the sweetest girls in the world, I have never once gotten irritated at you because it is IMPOSSIBLE!I love all the hilarious times we’ve had, and the excursions we’ve gone on, you are a total gem, never ever forget that.
Katie: thank you for going on this “Writing journey” with me I couldn’t do Radiant without you, not only are you a fellow “staffer” but you’re a DAzzLING DiaMONd!God Bless you for all the times I’ve “e-cried on your shoulder” and vented on the phone, someday we’ll meet and have a rockin awesome time.
Natalie: remember the times when our dads would get together for the Packer games and we’d play dolls or watch TV on the black and white in my room?I love those times!Next time you get over here we definetly need to catch up, we’d probably talk the whole time! I love you!
Keegan: what a friend you are!I’ve been amazed with how STRONG you are, yes I mean it.I see strength in you, you’ll pull through I know it.Thank you for all the hugs and sweet words on Sun. ;)It was amazing having someone go through some of the exact same situations as me…I appreciate you even more now, know that you are gorgeous, absolutely beautiful inside and out.And don’t say “no not really” because it’s true even if you don’t see it yet.God Bless you…
For all the “older/wiser” friends aka (Ash, Tara, Micah, etc.) I have that give me advice/stick up for me, you guys are amazing and in a few years when I’m to your age I hope to be just like y’all ;)
For all the other friends I love dearly but weren’t able to mention tonight out of lack of sleep: Christen, Amber, Courtney, Kayla, Peter, Katie, Heather, Kirsten, IGab, Jayla, Dara, Sarah, etc. adore you guys for all you do for me…<3
Grandaddy:I love you so much that sometimes my heart hurts. I love the times when you’d give me lifesavers and let me sit on your lap.I love how you would read the Bible out loud to me…I love how you always smelled like tic-tacs.I loved how you were the most unselfish, loving, person I knew and might ever know.And I know you’re rejoicing in heaven right now with Jesus himself, basking in his glory.I love you…
Random: a few of my fav. song quotes
In my dreams I’ll always see you soar across the sky, and where you are there I’ll be…
And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter…he said ‘someday I hope you get the chance to live like you were dyin…
You raise me up to more then I can be…
Amazing grace how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me…
Ohhh remember when it rained…felt the ground and looked up high and called your name…
Gotta keep movin on, movin on…fly away, breakaway
I can’t fly at least not yet…
No more sad songs I’m letting it go now, you turned out the light, I’m gonna be alright without you, turn your radio on, no more sad songs.
I survived the crash, survived the burn, I survived the worst, yeah baby but I learned…
Some people live just to play the game…
Howcan you see into my eyes like open doors…
I wanted you to know, I love the way you laugh I wanna hold you high and steal your pain…
Cause I’m broken when I’m open and I don’t feel right when you’re gone away…
I don’t wanna be anything other then what I've been lately
The trouble with love is, it can tear you up inside, make your heart believe a lie, it’s stronger then your pride…
Fly me up to where you are beyond the distant star, I wish upon tonight to see you smile if only for a while to know you’re there…
Dear friend what’s on your mind?You don’t laugh the way you used to…
If you believe that dreams come true, there’s one that’s waiting here for you…
I’m over it
She wants to go home but nobody’s home
Life’s like this…
All this time you were pretendin so much for my happy ending…
I’m thankful for the blessings and the lessons that I’ve learned from you...
Me and a friend working backstage at the Everlife + Jump5 concert...who wants to go with me that won't lose their composure when Brandon and Chris walk into the room and wouldn't mind working backstage? (preferebly someone who lives close)
Alrighty I"m gonna be a copy-cat and do what Clark did on his xanga...
"Rules: write a statement intended for 10 different ppl..." (note: these are not at all in specific order, just the person that I've seen lately or made an impact on me recently etc.)
#1--Holy cow you amaze me...we're so alike it's not even funny, do you think we were separated from birth? Thank you for being such a wonderful listener, for your crazy "theories" on situations in my life, for having a shoulder for me to "vent on" I've never forgotten when you said "You can vent to me." thank you so so much for being...there and with such a snappy, fun, sweet spirit!
#2--I <3 you so stinkin much it isn't funny. Thank you for (daily) putting up with my crazy antics and (lame) practical jokes. You make me laugh with all the crazy stuff you do that bugs me like heck but inside I'm cracking up. Esp. when you "sing" at the table...(you know what I mean;) )
#3--Holy cow do you ever check your e-mail? You've always been a fabulous friend, even though we don't see each other as much as I'd like too...you're always up to interesting stuff (no I don't get tired of your stories) and you make me laugh all the time You're such a sweet girl! God Bless!
#4--I <3 you. You are special, unique, gorgeous, talented, sweet, etc. I can't believe we used to be....on bad terms. I will never stop being your friend and will always be here for you whenever wherever all the time. Don't forget it.
#5--I remember the Jr. High times when we'd talk about which boys were annoying at camp, which we'd NEVER go out with, etc. I remember bein dorks but having fun. I remember our e-mails that were sometimes 5 times a day! And I remember last Sun. how you sweetly listened to me talk. You are a blessing and you encourage me in so many ways.
#6--for two girls that met on the internet we have a swell friendship wouldn't you say? You are inspiring and we are very like-minded. You have such a genuine feel about you, you're a joy to interact with, don't change ok? <3 ya
#7--You encourage me in Christ, I can't believe how each time I read something you've written I nodd my head in agreement. God IS good...he DOES love us...thank you for constantly reminding me when I needed it most! God Bless you my friend!
#8--When someone is 4 yrs. older then you, they have good advice to give you, some of the advice you've given is so obvious but when you said those things I really tried to apply them, and still am. Thanks for listening to my quick "vents" and I won't forget when you tried to call because you cared. Wise words make a difference. Thank's for bein such a "Rad" brother in Christ. God Bless.
#9--You are so awesome for putting up with me, letting me hang around and be a dork You are such a kind, fun-loving girl it's always a blast to chat with you! I remember all the funny things we've done in the past...hilarious things haha too many to count. Thanks for listening when I had a err "story" to tell you. <3 you muchles!
#10--you rock more than anyone. I love you so much. You are my rock, my strength. When I'm having a bad hair day you raise me up and remind me it's all good. Thank you for working everything the way it should go. Thank you for making me the way I am...my unique self. Thank you for the oppurtinities, letting me see my mistakes, letting me learn. I LOVE you.
(who they were)
1-Ashley M.
2-Ashley G. (my sis)
3-Natalie M.
4-Keegan
5-Amber
6-Kayla
7-Peter
8-Micah
9-Tara
10-JESUS!!!!
Today was so EXHAUSTING! I was at co-op for SEVEN hours! Seven. I had my Bloody Mary project, was the helper for devotions with Stephen, and then drama for four hours I'm so tired! (no face for tiredness) and I got home, crashed, wrote in my journal, listened to music, and I got this weird urge to dance as in hard-core jazz/hip-hop so I got out the old school SClub7 CD (haha Louisa) and I just...let go of things for half an hour and just went all out...it felt awesome. Feel stressed? Dance, it helps honest...dance is my therepy....that and a good manicure (ha not that shallow)
So let's see I have dance tomorrow lol we're doing a routine for that old school Men In Black song, it's so hilarious/cool though. Fri. Matt & Josh & Mrs. R are coming...believe it or not I haven't seen them ever since mid-July (camp...well I saw Mr. & Mrs. R at the mall but that's another story)
Something totally random for the fun of it: A month ago or so when we were coming back from someplace this dog was running in the middle of the street (sooo cute but so dangerous!) and we came to a stoplight so I got out of the car, walked down the street and tried to catch this dog...he ran away So yeah I didn't quite have a PETA-friendly animal rescue there. That was too random.
Ok you guys are sooo lazy…you see the little word “comment” at the bottom…click it…type.It’s easy
So Sunday night I had way too much fun at YG…it was great to surprise my friends because none of them knew I was coming except Ash. So I got to see Keegan, Christen, Ashley, Nicole, Amber, and just had a great time bein…wackos!When I sat down to chat with Keegan she said “So how’ve you been?”And I was like “Umm we haven’t talked for a while so where do I start?”Ok we hadn’t talked in so long I started at THE BEGINNING OF THE SUMMER!How sad is THAT?Haha it was so hard trying to sum it up quickly as not to bore people J (haha little humor there).Then afterwards Nicole, Andrew, Keegan and I were all chatting and a few people were attempting to be err random Jhaha…man it’s so cool how they play awesome music there, they were playing Toby Mac’s Welcome to DiverseCity.I was practically salivating since I really want that CD!So anyway I had a good time bein with good friends.And there’s another lip-sync contest in Dec. so we’ll see what Christmas-themed-song I’ll end up doin with people…( Keegan I smell another “best choreography” comin!)*What’s a partridge, what’s a pear tree?Well I don’t know so please don’t ask me* -ReliantK 12 Days of X-Mas.
Then let’s see yesterday was sorta good and mostly bad haha. I DID win Everlife’s new CD JYes!And Louisa called and we talked for a solid half-hour+man Louisa you should be a physiologist, I had such a good time talking to you and you really encouraged meJ thanks!
I have my HUGE Shakespeare project tomorrow…after that it’ll be done!Yay!*Celebration*
Please pray for me because everything is so…maybe overwhelming I guess…tomorrow I have no time for normal school cause I have drama practice for hours and it’s so c-r-a-z-y.Like really crazy.
I’m so crushed cause today I turn on the TV and Avril is on singin “My Happy Ending”I was like “Oh my gosh!!” but she sounded…*how do I say this nicely* really bad…like flat and off key and yeah she just sounded not good and I was like “noooooo!” can nobody sing live well anymore?Geez…but then she sang Nobody’s Home well so I sorta forgave her…partlyI was so excited I threw my math book in the air ha!
Here again facing the drama, the putdowns, the setbacks, trying to rise...it's so hard bein me I've got big dreams, high hopes, aspirations that can never be broken but they tell me,
You're just a girl you can't do it alone, go on home, pack up your dreams, ignore the tears as they stream, you can't do anything, fold up your wings and fall...
Submit to others will for me, I'm not good enough to get by, I don't meet your standard I don't make you satisfied, though I've tried, they tell me,
You're just a girl you cant do it alone, gon on home...pack up your dreams, ignore the tears as they stream, you can't do anything, just fold up your wings and fall...
They tell me...(You're not good enough) they tell me...(you can't) they tell me...(give it up) well I tell them...
I'm just a girl (just a girl)...I can do it alone, I won't go home or pack up my dreams (dreams, precious dreams), or have tears to fall, I can do anything...I'll spread my wings and fly...fly away
I woke up this morning and Colleen had called me saying that I could come shopping with her, her mom, grandma, and two aunts if I could be ready REALLY soon so I got ready in like ten min (after I just got out of bed ha!) and we piled into the van and hit the outlets. At the risk of sounding shallow...I had such a good time. We went to alllll these places, made fun of ugly clothes and the like:) Then we went to Gap and looked around, I spied THE COOLEST pants ever to walk the earth (no pun intended) they were black, with sequines on the side...Banana Republic, need I say more? Unfortunetly I didn't have any money with me for that so I was like "noooooo" but Aunt Renee was like "I'll help you get those..." Because everyone was like "That is SO CHELS!" haha and we're at the check out and she buys them for me! I was so touched because even though I see her sometimes she doesn't know me THAT well so that was super-sweet of her:) 
yeah that was stupid but luckily thanks to an extra fleece I was ok. The last store, Aerosoles was awesome because I walked in and was like "Hey...that's CLAY on the radio!" 
Well it was but it was his Christmas album...the one I hadn't heard yet, so we got to listen to the whole Clay cd cause we took a while in that store:) I was like "Colleen I want to sing along...stop me!" 
I had a good Thanksgiving, it was really boring though cause it was just my fam and my grandma...no cousins but it was still fine. I watched Spider-Man. I love that movie. Yup that's right I said that, Tobey McGuire is a wonderful actor, not like those stupid guys who are so good looking that they get parts they don't deserve-ha! Anyway I really liked it, Jayla called towards the end but that was good cause I love talkin to her and had already seen the movie...
With surround sound and everything so I cannot wait to watch Mr. Deeds tonight...We've been needing a new CD player SO badly! It's this vcr/dvd/cd player with big speakers and then small ones for the rest of the room...wow. Thanks dad
